Some Perspective (rp for imleothelion) [Complete]

[badbobbybarnes]

He kept the bond choked down even as he settled him himself at the cafe. He had no idea if Leo would come, if the request would be answered, but he thought that maybe his husband had a little honor and a little pride that would both demand he answer.

Especially since it was the first time he'd let the other feel anything through that cursed connection since he'd walked away from him two days previous.

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Leo awoke in a shaky fit, his eyes shifted to glance at the girl in his bed. He shook his head and climbed his way from under the covers of the bed that he and his husband should've shared. The last two nights, Leo had indulged in his old ways - young girl after young girl. He had unleashed his anger upon them, so that today, he would be calm and collected.

Dressing in an all black suit, he made his way to the cafe where his husband beckoned him to. Having spotted Bobby in a far corner, looking like something of a deranged homeless cat, Leo sucked harder on the cigarette between his lips, begging for more nicotine as he got closer.

"Bobby." He croaked, the cigarette muffling his voice as he took a seat.

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He stared across at the man he'd married, taking in the funeral suit and the nervous smoking. He kept his face blank as he took a sip of his coffee. He didn't acknowledge him until he was done, reminding Leo, not very subtly, that he was an equal in their marriage and their lives, not a subordinate.

"Leo." He waved at the waiter who'd served him, having another cup of coffee brought over for his husband. "Are ya well? The girls keeping ya distracted?"

[imleothelion.livejournal.com]

He kept the black sunglasses on, for now at least, he wouldn't let Bobby see how hurt, confused and tired he was. He snorted at the question, staring into the black void that was the coffee cup burning his hands.

"Distracted enough." Leo answered cooly, cigarette hanging from his lips as he watched his husband from behind dark glasses.

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Bobby tried to image how they must look to anyone passing by. Leo, closed off, right down to those sunglasses, himself as open as he could be in so public a place, except for the minor issue of the fact that his face was blank.

"When did ya last eat?" The question surprised him, even as he asked it, a wounded tenderness in his tone. He tried to keep the surprise from his face, but it flashed through his eyes just the same. He almost immediately looked down, staring into his coffee as if all the answers were hidden there.

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Leo blinked in surprise at the question, having fully been expecting Bobby to bark out insults and put him in his place. He brought the hot coffee to his mouth, moving the cigarette to his hand as he sipped.

It burned his throat, and he gave a small, almost silent whimper. He shrugged at the question, feeling his shoulders heavy. "A few days." He answered weakly, shifting in his seat to bring out his tin of rolled cigarettes.

He paused a second, before offering Bobby one from across the tiny table.

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He took one of the offered cigarettes and laid it on the table. It took him a moment to look up again, greeted once more with his own reflection in the dark lenses of Leo's glasses. He could feel a low hate simmering for those and an urge to rip them off his face came and went.

"Ya should eat. Keep ya strength up for..." He stopped himself from saying the first thing that came to mind. Insults were not going to cut it here, he was better than that. "What am I, Leo? To you?"

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His lips parted as he brought back the almost sucked dry cigarette to his mouth, he wanted it to be weed so fucking badly. Leo closed his eyes behind the dark shades, and lowered his head to the tiles on the table.

His eyes outlined Bobby's hands, rough and masculine. It almost made him whimper, because even if he had indulged these past few nights with the local whores, he had missed his husbands rough caress.

"My husband." He paused to lick his dry lips. "My other half." He nibbled his lower lip thoughtfully. "Mine."

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He unconsciously spun the ring around his finger as he thought. He knew Leo was watching him. He could almost guess what he was thinking. Bobby was torn between yelling at him for taking comfort in the arms of another while those around him abstained and just being quiet. For the most part, quiet won out, as his next question was almost a whisper. "And Mel? What's she?"

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Leo felt his stomach churn at the question. He loved Mel, just like he loved Bobby, but he couldn't get over the fact that she was pregnant with their child. Then he nearly choked: their.

Leo swallowed hard before answering, his voice wavered with pain. "Ours." He answered simply, finding it hard to answer with anything more but, "Ours."

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Bobby nodded, finally picking up the cigarette and lighting it. He took a few drags, then spoke softly, pained by every word he had to say, he'd always expected more from Leo than what he'd gotten two days ago.

"If I'm ya other half, that makes me ya equal. Equal. Not one of us better or more than the other. If I'm ya's, then ya mine, not one of us better or more than the other." He licked his lips and hang his head as he continued. "And if Mel's ours, then we're her's. Not a one of us better or more than the other. With all that, that makes this baby ours, all three of us."

He lifted his head and looked hard at Leo, his voice breaking as he whispered. "Means we gotta decide together. We ain't like ya whores or ya servants, Leo. Ya can't just dictate and expect us to jump. We're all three equal. We gotta make this choice together."

He blinked slowly, tears finally coming to his eyes. He wanted to touch his husband, to hold him and be told it was all going to be okay. But he couldn't do that, not yet. Not until Leo understood.

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Finally he slowly pulled the sunglasses off, letting Bobby see the hurt and pain in his eyes as he lent in to speak in a soft, husky tone. He knew that Bobby was right, that they were both equals, he had known this from the very start of their relationship.

"Just..." His voice broke. "...Never had someone I love get pregnant with a child..That may or may not be mine." His shoulders sagged in defeat, and he lowered his head, looking ever much like a defeated soldier, letting Bobby know he won, that he understood.

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Bobby scooted his chair around until he was next to Leo. He put his hand on his back and rubbed as he lowered his head next to his husband's. After kissing his cheek, he whispered softly in his ear. "It's ours, Leo. Biological father doesn't matter. You and Me and Mel. Our family, our kid. Together. Always together."

He leaned down a little more and stole a kiss before hugging him to his side. "Ain't a one of us can do it together, ya know. But, maybe, all three of us won't totally fuck a kid up. But we ain't even gonna know if we should try until we're all on the same page."

Sniffling, he kissed Leo's shoulder, then straightened some. "I talked to Mel today. I think ya should talk to her. Then we should all talk together." His hand moved over Leo's side and down to his hip, where he squeezed. "But, before we all talk together, we need to reconnect. Been apart a long time, this family. We need to find ourselves again."

The next part was whispered, although it came out much closer to a whimper. "I don't wanna sleep alone, Leo. I wanna be with my family. I need to be."

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Leo heard himself whimper when Bobby touched him, he felt himself lean into him, his skin heating up at the contact. All those girls could never make him feel how Bobby made him feel, that fire inside him burst and he shuddered in response.

He closed his eyes and fought back the wave of emotion he was feeling at that moment and nodded, agreeing with Bobby on everything. Leo leaned into his husband, pressing a deep kiss to his lips.

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Tired of being alone, he eased, slowly, off the hold he had on their connection. He used the kiss as the reintroduction. His lips pressed firmly against his husband's before his mouth opened in invitation. Turning in his seat, he whimpered as he tangled a hand in Leo's hair. Don't ever wanna havta to that again.

He shifted and whimpered, pressing his tongue into his mouth. The joining, the first kiss since they'd left Sicily, was bittersweet and dangerously close to overwhelming. He wanted to cry. That desire translated into tears and another whimper as he moved to hug him more tightly.

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A groan escaped his mouth as he felt their connection slowly ease back to normal, it made his chest burn, which in turn made tears well in his eyes and spill down his cheeks. Damn, handsome fuck, always getting me to cry. He chided lovingly as they kissed. Love you

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Love ya more. He was very reluctant to pull back, not wanting to lose contact with him. But he finally found his angle to be wrong and so he had to. He only went as far as was necessary for him to adjust himself, not more than an inch from his husband's lips.

With a slow smile, he whispered. "Ya beautiful when ya cry, ya know. Most amazing looking man I've ever seen."

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He sniffled, wiping below his eyes with the back of his dark suit sleeve. Leo shook his head, chuckling against Bobbys mouth, nibbling his lovers lower lip. "Fuck off." He grinned wide, nuzzling their noses together. "Let's go home. I gotta talk to Mel. Make up for being a jackass."

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"Ya so charming, too." He gave him another quick kiss, then nodded. "I gotta go check outta the room and get my bike. I'll meet ya there, give ya a chance to find her." He gave him a much deeper kiss, then whimpered softly. "Give ya two a chance to talk, yeah?"

He stood and pulled Leo to his feet, giving him a tight hug. God, he'd missed that, the firmness of his husband in his arms. They really needed to stop doing this to each other. When he pulled back, he wiped Leo's cheek and smiled. "So handsome. Love ya so much."

After tossing money on the table for the coffees, he spanked Leo lightly to get him moving. "I'll see ya at home, ya fuck."