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Every single day
Every word you say
Every game you play
Every night you stay
I'll be watching you
She worked in the kitchen and he watched her. That was what he did now, he watched. It was all he could do. He was waiting for her to snap, for her to finally get around to blaming him for what happened.
No matter what anyone told him, he would always feel responsible. Part of that came from his belief that the child had been his and part of that came from his ingrained sense of being a failure. He had only his own father to thank for that, but there was little that would change his mind on the matter.
So he watched her and waited for her to finally be fed up with him.
Yet, every time she caught him looking at her, she just smiled. There was no blame in the smile, no accusation. No matter how hard he looked, he could only see love in her eyes. A love that he didn't believe should still be there. He was to blame and she would not.
Her belief in him made it hard for him to keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. Her smile, always there for him when she looked at him, stole away at his resolve. Her smile started to warm him, fill him.
Her smile finally started to make him feel whole again. So he kept watching her. What else could he do.
[232 words]
Every word you say
Every game you play
Every night you stay
I'll be watching you
She worked in the kitchen and he watched her. That was what he did now, he watched. It was all he could do. He was waiting for her to snap, for her to finally get around to blaming him for what happened.
No matter what anyone told him, he would always feel responsible. Part of that came from his belief that the child had been his and part of that came from his ingrained sense of being a failure. He had only his own father to thank for that, but there was little that would change his mind on the matter.
So he watched her and waited for her to finally be fed up with him.
Yet, every time she caught him looking at her, she just smiled. There was no blame in the smile, no accusation. No matter how hard he looked, he could only see love in her eyes. A love that he didn't believe should still be there. He was to blame and she would not.
Her belief in him made it hard for him to keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. Her smile, always there for him when she looked at him, stole away at his resolve. Her smile started to warm him, fill him.
Her smile finally started to make him feel whole again. So he kept watching her. What else could he do.
[232 words]
